Views of Water
Diaries are an ongoing series of regular contributions by women working in different creative mediums. They may explore themes of motherhood, womanhood, or just life.
I didn’t used to keep journals, but when I had my kids my time became sparse. I had to be creative on the go, and moments when they were sleeping in the stroller or playing at the playground became something to make use of.
I grew up by the ocean in Sweden. Water has always played a big part in my life. I’m the most happy there. My mum used to take me crab fishing in the summer and swim with me on her back in the ocean before I could swim myself. Surfing is also a part of that. I didn’t grow up surfing, so it’s something I’m challenging myself to do. To be a beginner when you are older is humbling and so fun.
Since I mostly draw and paint figuratively for work, I’m really drawn to more abstracted shapes when I work in my journal. I find it to be super relaxing and contemplative. Since they are mostly abstract, I can be inspired to draw by something as loose as impressions of the day, seeing color and shapes interacting.
I also think before I had a problem with perfection. I wanted every page to be perfect and awesome. And that just doesn’t happen - there will always be some more and less successful pages in a book. Working through that has been a great lesson to me. And since I've had children, I've had to learn to have great time management, and how to stop in the middle of things. That can be very frustrating, but it's just how it’s is.
Some of these were drawn when we were on vacation in Montauk three years ago. Oscar used to scribble in my journals, and I used to incorporate that in my drawings. Now he keeps his own journals, and he loves when he gets to use my bag of grown up markers and pens. It’s just a little glimpse of time, those little moments that makes your life wonderful.